Weight Check 6-17-2010

17 Jun

So its been a couple days since I’ve really started pushing myself to lose this weight. I have made some pretty ambitious goals and I plan on keeping them. So I have been working extra hard.

I started the week at 230 pounds.


228 pounds (although the glare from the T.V makes it hard to read)

2 pounds in 3 days. That is pretty awsome. At last I am seeing results. And that makes me happy


Tools to help you track your progress

16 Jun

You can’t do a job without the proper tools. And as nearly anyone will tell you, having the proper tools make all the difference in doing the job effectively.

The same goes for losing weight. In order to effectively lose weight, you need to be able to keep track of your progress, your goals, excersise, and what you eat. All of it.

I am a visual person. If I can see my progress that I am making towards my goal, then I feel like I have accomplished something. Thing is, I didn’t want another notebook sitting around, plus I wanted something that would not only track what I ate, but would compute calories, my excersise, the whole nine yards.

Now, I don’t own an iPhone. But I do own an iPod touch, that I love to death. This thing is never far from my reach. I was pleased to discover that nearly every app that is available for the iPhone is available for the iPod touch (you just need the most recent software update…which is $5.00)

I have downloaded 3 apps so far, although there are many  more I would like to add to my iPod.

1.)Jillian: An app by America’s toughest trainer! I love Jillian Michaels. She may be tough, but she gets the job done. I recently signed up for a free trial for her online program. And while I may not continue it (it’s $50.00 a quarter, and I don’t have that kinda cash at the moment) it is a great tool. So, I searched the Apple Itunes App store when I heard about her newest App. It is free to download and use and is a great way to keep track of everything you need to. (including motions like running..it tracks that movement.)

2.)SparkPeople: This is another free app. It is a great way to track your goals, calorie intake, and more.

3.)SparkRecipes: This is a free app that has a TON of healthy recipes for any occasion right at your fingertips. The recipes include the calorie and other nutritional information.

*These reviews are my own opinion. I was in no way compensated for these reviews and have no affilation with the above companies*

Motivational Monday~Change The Way You Think~

15 Jun

You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be.” -David Viscott

Sometimes it is hard to stay motivated. I know it is very hard for me at times. All I want to do is just curl up on the couch and watch T.V.

Losing weight is a mental battle as well as a physical battle. By changing the way you think, and how you look at yourself, you will start to see the results you are looking for. Believe that you can do this. See yourself as a confident and beautiful person. Know that you are strong. And are loved. You can do this.

Eating habits…how to change them

11 Jun

As I struggle through my weight loss journey, I am forced to take a look at my eating habits. I am learning that it is not so much what you eat, as how you eat. Or in my case, why I eat.

I read this article today, and really got to thinking about thing. Really got to thinking about why I eat the way that I do. Most, ok all, the eating habits seem to fit me. But I have already determined that I am an emotional eater. I know that. So, now whatI need to do is work on changing my eating habits.

1.) I eat when I am upset, stressed, mad, or just because. When I am going through a rough time I need to find more constructive way to deal. Work out, clean house, or write.

2.)Keep healthy alternatives in the house. By keeping healthier alternatives in the house will help curb my tendancy to eat fatty and unhealthy foods

What are your tips?

Removing “I can’t” from my vocabulary

11 Jun

I can’t. That is a phrase that I use quite freely in my vocabulary. I use it probably close to one hundred times a day. Probably more. I use it so much that I dont even realize that I am doing it.

I am making it a POINT to remove that phrase from my vocabulary. Permanently. And not just in my personal life, but in my professional life as well. It is affecting all areas of my life. Everything. And it needs to stop. Now.

Saying “I can’t” is like giving myself a free pass to just quit. Quiting is not an option. I want to succeed. More than that… I need to succeed. For my kids. For my husband. For ME.

I am sure that it isn’t going to be an easy task. But, when is enough, enough? When I am laying in a hospital bed? When I am to tired, too run down, too fat to play with my kids? No! It is enough NOW. While I still have a fighting chance. While I still am able to change. The time to change is now. 

We are never promised a tommorow, only a today…what are you going to do with it?

Let’s be honest, shall we?

9 Jun

I hate who I am right now. Each day I find it harder and harder to name one, just one , good thing about myself. I am always tired. Always in pain. Always feeling (and looking) like CRAP! I HATE IT!

I went grocery shopping today. I hated it. I hate food at this point. I don’t want to eat. I am painfully aware that each bite that I put into my mouth is making me fatter. I am killing myself with food. My blood pressure is out of whack. I am sure I am destined to be a diabetic. My body fat is way over what it should be and I am obese. I hate it.

I have tried to make changes. But I don’t know what is wrong with me. I am just not wired to lose weight. But I am trying.

See, there are 4 little people down stairs that need me to be healthy. They need me to be happy. They need me to be alive. My kids depend on me. I am their mom. Do I want them to grow up with out me? No. But I don’t know what to do. I feel like I am lost in a sea of cupcakes and chips 😦


3 Jun

I’ve had a few.

I think I have mentioned that I am an emotional eater. The biggest trigger seems to be stress. And, well there is ALOT of  that around here lately. So, my eating habits have been not the best. Ok, who am I kidding? They have been awful. Right now I hate food. Seriously. I hate my lack of will power, motivation, and discipline. There are times that I hate me.

I have successfully weaned myself from coffee and pop. I love my various varities of tea. I am proud of myself for that. But it is everything else that is a mess. It is everything else that just sucks.

So, I am wiping the slate clean. I have identified my triggers. Now it is time to find alternative means to dealing with stress. Productive ways. Ways that will make me feel better about myself. Ways that don’t include sugar laden, full of fat foods…

I can do this

I wore…

28 May

A dress! Yesterday, for the first time in forever.  Granted it was one of those maxi-dresses. But it still counts as dress, right?

Last summer I purchased this blue dress from Old Navy. Only to discover that I did not like the way it made me look. I felt fat. So it got relegated to the back of my closet, more than likely to never be worn again.

Yesterday I decided that I was going to put it on. And it fit. And I loved the way I looked in it! I was filled with a new found love for these dresses and am considering purchasing more for my wardrobe.

It may not seem like a big deal that I wore a dress. But wearing a dress is something that I have balked at my entire life. When I got married, I wanted to wear jeans. I hated dresses. As my weight increased, so did my disdain for dresses. My wardrobe staples are black jogging pants and an oversized t-shirt.

For me, wearing the dress is a huge step in the right direction. It was  huge boost to my self-esteem and an affirmation that I am doing the right thing!

Noone said it would be easy…

25 May

And trust me, it isn’t. This has been an up and down, inside and out, one hell of a ride…and it is just getting started. I have successfully given up pop and coffee. My half empty can of Maxwell house sits on the counter staring at me sadly. “Why did you do this…” It wasn’t easy. There were times that I craved a pop. I reasoned with myself that “just one won’t hurt” But I was strong. See, if I caved, if I gave in and had that pop or that coffee than what kind of example am I setting for my readers–or soon to be readers? How could I write a book about loosing weight if I couldn’t follow my own advice?

About that book–it is hard to write a book. Seriously. I want to get it done this summer so I can shop it to potential agents and publishing houses in August. My goal is to have it released before the end of the year…you know, right about time that people start thinking about their new year resolutions. So, I better get it in gear. I am actually looking for an agent that doesn’t require a manuscript. It would be nice to have that guidence.

Oh, there is a 5k coming up in June. I am seriously considering running it…or atleast trying to. I think that would be a great start to my second book ( I know…the first one isn’t even done yet…ideas I tell ya, I have ideas!)

Dear Maxwell House….

16 May

Today is a sad day. While you have served me loyally for most of my coffee drinking days, we must down part ways.

Each morning, as I enjoy a nice cup of coffee, I have to add way to much sugar and creamer to it to make it drinkable. I have tried other versions, but the truth be told…it is too much cream and to much sugar. And well , it isn’t healthy.

You may not have realized, but I am battling a huge weight problem. I am tired all the time, and the pain is unberable. I have made other changes but the weight is NOT leaving.

So, I talked with my mother in law, who has successfully lost weight and gained energy. She, too, had to part ways with you. So I am following suit. Yes, I see you staring at me from the counter as I enjoy my “Morning Thunder” Tea from Celestial Seasoning.

Sorry, but you are FIRED